Hello, I would like to thank whoever gave this blog one page view in the last year, I seriously appreciate your support. Well guess what, it's your lucky day because I have just rediscovered this blog and it just happens to be that summer 2k16 is starting in 6 days so I can start writing again! A lot has happened this year and I can genuinely say that it has been one of the best years of my life. For those of you who are living under a rock and are new to my widely popular blog, I am a nordic skier and cross-country runner attending Northern Michigan University in Marquette Michigan. I'm a little rusty on this whole blogging business and should really be studying for finals right now, but I'll give it a shot, because I feel like it. So, for all of you who have been anxiously awaiting my review of the last year, here you go.
I love college. Yep, it's true. It has been a really great year, one of the best of my life and I feel like I have sort been changed by it. I came into this year pretty terrified of what was to come. I have always been very dependent on my parents and I honestly didn't know if I would be able to physically survive without my mom bringing me breakfast and my constant support of my family and friends. I really expected myself to crumble. But actually, the opposite happened. I wouldn't say that I blossomed, because I didn't, but I think I got to know myself a lot better and it turns out we get along pretty well. Because I didn't have someone always offering to help me, I was forced to do things for myself. I felt a sense of joy and confidence when I would walk to class, big college-student me, after lifting weighs at 6:30 AM and submitting all my assignments on time while getting my full 9 hours of sleep (note* this was at the beginning of the semester...). I felt pretty good, and I still do. Although I was around a lot of people in college, I spent a surprising amount of time alone, but I actually liked this. I would find a quiet place when I needed some space and I would just chill out, in fact I'm doing that right now. I enjoyed most of my classes and actually loved a couple of them. The training was amazing and I worked harder than I ever have and I am a way better athlete now than when I arrived. I'm so so happy with how it all went. I would never want to go to a different school.
But okay, there were some rough times too. I don't like to say that I got homesick, because I never cried or got super depressed about missing home, but boy did I really miss Park City and all of my people there. I have never talked on the phone so much in my life and I spent way more time than I would like to admit reminiscing on all the good memories I've had at home. I had a serious case of "the grass is always greener on the other side" type of thing, because although I loved school and I felt great, I still felt like things in Park City would be better. I would get extreme sudden urges to call my parents or my #1 homie Kaila even when I had just talked to them the day before. Sometimes I felt pretty alone. As I've established, I don't mind being alone, but it sucked when I felt left out, although I know it was my fault sometimes. I had some pretty extreme anti-socail behavior cases and I just wished that I could jump into people's friendships. BUT I did make some great friends and I love everyone on my team.
All in all, it's been a great year, I've loved it, even the hard parts
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I am soooo excited for this summer. This year has made me realize how lucky I am to have such an amazing family (Kaila included) to keep me grounded. Here's to an amazing year of college, an even more amazing summer to come, and more blogging!!
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